wow

seeing an ex boyfriends first initial and then last name on a random ass blog is off putting.
Anyway, I never do this.
I made myself sick between the hours of 6am and 8am this morning only to fall asleep to redreaming the same fucked up shit.

Planning a trip to Portland in August, could not need it more.

We seriously go to the beach as much as we possibly can, it's been nice just having us time to goof off and take walks on the beach, watch him surf, dig for sand fleas and have intense dunking sessions and sand fights. I feel like a kid and I don't ever feel like growing up. It's done me a lot of good. I was talking about this the other day, I haven't gotten one red flag since I've met him. Pays for my food, buys me shoes/whatever, puts gas in my tank, isn't a wolf in sheeps clothing. I have to remember that.

I'm getting more and more girl friends down here and it's been nice, really nice. I still miss Alison a lot but we talk daily so it's no thing, she may be coming down for her birthday in which case that would be awesome.

I'm the new photobrat for my friends in school, made a stop motion video today..... seriously turned out so cool.
This will probably be a semi long post because I never get around to this anymore, probably not a bad thing.
I don't know what to blog on, aside from I've started using that twitter bullshit.

Growing up sucks, leaving people behind hurts...but I think later on things will be okay..even if it takes losing another year.

tupac looped.

okay

I will get this bull over with just to perhaps lighten my load.


I've been home since Wed....Alison came to Griffin then Meantime/Eddie came and stayed at my parents. After being sexually accosted by the Josh's we went to sleep.

Thursday- nineties party/made up with Tharik.
Friday- too hung over to function + a convertible ride= me hating my life.
Saturday- Picked up Brody and he is a fucking handful.
Sunday-Pool.
Monday- Is today, went to fayetteville got hair necessities then my Auntie treated me to my favorite pizza place. Came home laid around the pool floating and having a heart to heart. Now about to show my blonde newgrowth whose boss and do something else with my mop. Then color and cut alison's.

My dad said something that got me thinking and it has the potential to help me make an important decision. drop my heart and pick up my head.

There are things that need addressing and my eblog is not the time or place for them but when is really. My body is falling apart and I can't remember the last meal I ate without throwing it up. I go see the specialist tomorrow, at first I wanted someone with me but now I'm opting to go it alone. I can handle this, I've always done well and I really think I will just want to be alone completely alone after my appointment. So my six hour drive with the piggies will be my perfect alone time. Lots of thinking, which I finally need to do. I'm soaking up as much sun as I possibly can before I'm not allowed out in the sun. I need color and sunshine!

Might go to a drag show tonight, guess we will see. I'm starving but it seems so pointless to eat when I know fifteen minutes later my stomach will reject it. buh, someone fix me.

I've missed Atlanta, being here made me realize just how much. I'll be back for good soon enough. It's funny though, Florida is obviously hot but there's always a breeze..here there's nothing. just hot. I do miss the beach.

I think tonight I want to spend it on the top of Wachovia and walking through downtown like the old days. I'm done for now, but I'll be back later.

this

is all pointless.