i

wish everything was simple again.

because i love you
but because i love myself more.

because forgiveness comes easy but forgetting never will.

because i'm to young.

because i'm decisive.

because i can't think about any of it without wanting to throw up.
because i don't want to hate you.

because i can't do two things at once.

because i love my dog more than i love anyone i've ever met.
and because he's treated me better than anyone i've ever met.

because i can't stop texting and smiling.

because i've known for so long.
because of the hurt.

because i'll never really know anyone.
because i'll always half expect the worse from everyone.

because i'm sucker when someone cries.
because i'm even more of a sucker for i love you.

becausebecausebecausebecausebecausebecause.

i wish i was brain dead sometimes.
i think i'm going to be a lady bug for halloween.
i need to take a long shower and wipe away the grime of the day.

i'm restless and it's obvious.